So, three years later. Its funny to look back on my account and see who I was and who I came to be. Its enjoyable actually. What more, I'm proud of who I was and who I am. Japan never happened. A tsunami at the time saw to that. Instead, I ended up in the other place I envisioned. Austin. Let me tell you, its better than I ever imagined.
Skirts dominate my closet but somehow I still wear jeans so often. I know its wrong and I'm slowly easing them out. OK, I'm kicking them out for the spring and summer because its super hot over here so yeah. I adore floral and don't have enough of it. I'm even softer than I was before but somehow I found a metal band I actually enjoy. I still enjoy horror though I haven't watched any recently. I've been on an Investigation Discovery kick out of this world though. I wonder if I had a taste of real monsters which makes the fake ones so far away. Who knows?
Eventually, I hope to be doing something I love. I graduated so now what? Now what indeed.
I write now, I mean really write. I want to do something with it, but who will buy it? My insecurities come and go like tides on the shore. I breathe into the salty air now. I've read some books on ebbs and flows. They're no longer mysteries to me.
People have come, people have gone, some remain the loving same. Roots, branches and leaves as they say. I had to rediscover my roots recently and I thank God for it. I had to rediscover him too. He never left me but there was some barriers between us that I didn't appreciate. Fuck those barriers.
To the ones who got off the ride: I hope your life goes better than you could have ever imagined and that everything you touch turns to rainbows and starshine levels of amazing. To the ones that stayed: I hope I can be there and share in the love and sorrows, the triumphs and pitfalls, the happiness and the sorrow because life is richer and more wonderful than anything the hands of man can produce yet. I want the best for everyone, that's something I'm still growing into.
Life is an endless motion of greats yes's and fuck me's, of orgasms and painful amputations, of heaven and hell and beauty and pain. We're all in this together and I'm ready to high five all those who flow down this stream with me.